Five things
By: Rae
Somebody once asked me
what was it that made me f a l l
in love with you.
I pretended I didn’t hear them
for reality was too hard
to handle.
And yet my heart whispered.
At first glance I will always remember
your smile.
It was full of joy,
complete abandon to whatever
humored you at that moment.
I always hoped it was because of me.
For if I was the reason you smiled
then maybe you wouldn’t
forget me after you l e ft.
My second glance was one of caution,
for something warned me that
I should be on guard.
But just one peek had me f a l l i n g
for your laughter.
I couldn’t help but join in.
I wanted to share in your happiness
for you made me laugh even
when I didn’t want to.
Time passed and the third realization happened
I had begun to crave your affection.
How you could make me feel so
comfortable,
protected
was a mystery to me.
For at night when I’m tired or scared
all I want is you to be there and never
let go.
The fourth reason was a surprise
for it had to deal with my past.
It happened slowly but I woke up one day
noticing I didn’t mind your touch.
I wanted to hold your hand.
I wanted to be t u c k e d securely
under your shoulder
when before I just wanted to stand
alone.
The final thing is hard to admit.
I fell in love with you because
you are you.
Even underneath trying to impress me
I still saw – you.
I didn’t mind your annoying habits.
Or your awful taste in music
Or how much of a nerd you were about some things.
It was just who you are.
My heart stopped its whispering.
The silence blissfully returned.
For in the end I made a mistake
and you were already
gone.
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